Reading Fanfiction a bad thing?

I'm a fanfiction writer in the Inuyasha fandom and I have to say that I honestly don't think fanfictions are your problem my friend. I don't mean any disrespect but it sounds to me like you're suffering from a severe case of depression, maybe even something more serious. Your love for fanfictions isn't a bad thing and there's no reason to think it is or be ashamed by it. I love fanfictions myself. From how you've expressed yourself I must say that I'm very concerned for you. I would seriously consider seeking out some professional advice from a psychiatrist. Not because of fanfictions, but because you seem to be having such a hard time. You said you don't want to kill yourself.... usually. To me that's a big red flag. It shouldn't be usually. It should be never. I myself suffer from a severe mental illness and there's no shame in that. I'm not saying you have one, I'm just saying you should seek someone out who can tell you if you're suffering from clinical depression, something else, or nothing at all. Therapy and medications can help. And being a virgin at your age is nothing to be ashamed about. There are virgins out there older than you trust me. I am more than willing to be your friend and if you give me a chance maybe I can help you in a way that you'd least expect. Sometimes a friend just listening can help. Other times friends can give really good advice. Don't be ashamed of loving fanfictions though. There's absolutely no harm in such a hobby. If you ever want to email me you can at BabyDayDay31382@aol.com :)